it's been awhile, so let's take it way back: freshman year, UF honors course. a random girl shoots me a contemplative look and comments on my "sparkle."
this goes down in my books as one of the greatest compliments i've ever received. why? because she wasn't talking about my clothes, or my infused lotion or any bling on my hands or ears. she just thought there was something about me that caught the light.
fast-forward a few years to small town florida. a car ride down 441 and an old friend shakes her head, "you know you light up the room."
part of me (that sad pathetic part that wants to hurl insults at the mirror) refuses to hear either. but another part of me remembers both days vividly and hopes. it's a hope for a beauty i've never believed in, but more than that, it's a hope that i can play a small part in reflecting the magic and mystery of every blessing this life has for us.
lately i've been an emotional wreck, the rollercoaster is never-ending. words such as "overwhelmed, stressed out, and tired" have become both my excuse and my crutch. these days when the mountain seems to loom infinite are the days when i yearn to shine. i want to feel the old smile light up my face.
why is it so hard to recapture me?
As I told you yesterday, your spur of the moment decision to ask me to lunch was extremely appreciated. You definitely put a smile on my face. It probably would have made my entire day if it wasn't for the fact that I heard the kid's heartbeat. :)
love you!
Posted by: serena | April 15, 2009 at 10:03 AM